My plans?

WOW! That is all I have to say about the last few days! Recently I have been rather selfish. I have been putting myself first and God way down on the list. And it isn't like I'm just forgetting God, I've been thinking, "hmm, would God really want me to do this?!" and deliberately disobeying him. Deliberately straying away from God=bad. So these last few days I have been completely slapped in the face, figuratively. So let me give you a run down of my "queen me" mentality.

I'm going to skip the majority of the stuff and skip straight to the most eye opening one: my recent job search. I have been TELLING God I need a job and asking Him to give me one. I finally got asked to come in to Target for an interview. Many people were praying that I get the job. Which I did. God answered my prayers the way I wanted them to be answered. Funny thing happened though. Right before the interview, I prayed that if it was God's will let the job work out. Well within 16 hours of getting the job offer, I had to turn it down. I actually knew 2 hours after I got the job that I would have to turn it down. I was thoroughly upset.

This is where it gets good and the God smack comes in. I was not happy with my family so I wanted to get out, so I went to church. The realization didn't happen at church though, it happened on the way home from church. I was flipping through radio stations, then I heard a song I loved from camp on Air 1. The song is Our God is Greater by Chris Tomlin listen to the lyrics:

"And if our God is for us, than who could ever stop us. And if our God is with us, than who could stand against." Right then that was when I realized that this was God trying to get my attention. God just kept talking to me through my radio. All of the song I have been hearing (even on Pandora) have been about letting God have control over my life. Here are just a few examples:

*The Stand by Hillsong United ("heart abandoned, my soul lord to you surrendered" giving everything to God)

*Roaring Like a Lion by David Crowder ("living on the inside roaring like a lion" He was definitely roaring this time)

*Let the Waters Rise by Mike's Chair ("so let the waters rise if you want them to, I will follow you." enough said)

*Glory Defined by Building 429 (there will always be better, but that is for God to choose)

*You Found Me by The Fray (when everything was falling apart, God was there guiding me)

*Happy Day by Fee (it was played at my baptism where I said quote, "I'm no longer living by my plan or by my will, but by God's")

*Beautiful Beautiful by Francesca Battistelli (God is what makes me beautiful, following His plan is what makes me beautiful)

*Rescue by Newsong (the world has nothing for me, but I need God and His plans for me)

*Be Still by Rush of Fools

I talked to my big seester Kate Rabago, and she also was telling me how it wasn't God's plan and pointing out how God gave me what I wanted, but then took it away and made me realize it wasn't his will. Also there was a blog by Steven Furtick, I recommend you read that blog. It is called perfect for you. Everyone was posting it on fb, so I read it and it hit home. It was about trusting God and following His plan. What God knows is the best for me, might not seem like the best for me...but God can work wonders through any situation.

I'm just going to end with a few verses that fit in:

"I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all things through him who gives me strength." -Philippians 4:10-13

"Be still and know I am God." -Psalm 46:10

"'For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."